Tuesday, 8 October 2013

My Blue Slippers Slip

There was once a lad in the far far land, he was a curious one. He wanted to taste all the nectar in the world and take a bite at all the apples that were there. He was born in the house of Lard, a humble merchant of textile, who did not have the eye are desire to experience of the most exquisite honey swirling in his mouth. That kind of ecstasy was something Lard was unaware of. Therefore it was natural to be shocked out of the boots when he heard his son say that you wanted to go to large, large land to have it all.
 
'But son, you WANT to look after my textiles, your innocent brain is tricking you into believing otherwise.'

'No Father, I am the one who wants to sell the silk in your precious drawer, no. I am the son who wants to bring his mother the taste of heaven and preciousness of silver to her feet, the sluriness of the fermented liquid which brews in the barrels in the basements of the large houses.'

Lard did not understand his son's need to explore. It was not a safe option. The feeling of not a familiar raod under yor feet frightened him.

'Son? What will you do when you realize that the wine you were fantasizing about was in fact sour and not what you wanted? What you do then in the large land where no one you know will be able to help you out?'

'Yes son, please pay heed to your father! The silver will shine only to remind us that there are shinier things out there to be achieved. You don't want greed to break us apart? Do you now, son?' His mother, Tallow, asked wiping her eyes. 

'It will be difficult when there are boulders in my path, yes. There is not a single word which can be uttered to console the nagging sensation of failure but dear Mother, will the world be changed if I were to go back to my rock and lie beneath it and not breath a word but that pine tree which have the most soulful aroma? Will I be happy with everything I see with my frail eyes? No. But will I try anyway? Yes, because my molds have set the notions too strong AND the land of the unknown is calling me. Let me know that I have what blessing you may want to bestow upon me, and let this be the last time you think of me as your little boy. Today I, Epoxy, stand to be strong and bind together the knows and unknowns. To make everyone believe that what is undiscovered is not malignant. Not always!'

With that Epoxy, the son of the Lard and Tallow, cemented the belief that you can only look at the world with you tint. He was the silver and today he lives happy in a land not so large and not so far. He lives in a land with a mighty fair lady who called herself Putty. 

It was not hard to say that they lived happily ever after, with a curious relationship at hand.

Thursday, 3 October 2013

All night.

If the clouds were not there, would one look up the sky and think about longing one might have felt once?
Might have felt the tiny trembling in your stomach, listened close to the faint growling of sky-keepers. There can't be anything which can be remembered or loved unless it flies past you everyday.

Maybe your life is just as frail. Just as fragile. Just as irrevocably breakable.

As you walk past the one person, you look into the eyes and you see this glass. Glass for the emotion you long to see. Then with time you learn that look too well, so much so that you develop your own kind of glass.

One day the beauty of the trees will fade. Then slowly and surely, the time will come for other things to fade as well. The sweet memories of the kind holdings will all blur away into a light touch of colour in the vast sky.

It will all end leaving a soft trail.behind and one day that trail.will die as well leaving no evidence of your existence, and no one to for that loss as well. All in its own fair time.

Wednesday, 2 October 2013

Awkward marathon

I have been watching this show called "Awkward" for like three seasons in one night! My god that is some speed.

Time to switch this woman offf. Oh, wait! The last episode is here! Well, after that I will.

OVER! Its overrrrr!!
Alright. Now simply switch it off and turn away!

Away.. Sllowly. Great!

Tuesday, 1 October 2013

PMSing my way to hell

When god made women, I am sure that he thought that lets make them real special. Earth needs the flourish only a woman can bring to a room. Yes, then he gave too much thought into us. Lets make them really reAlly special he said. Ah, the irony.

So, the world is filled with hatred, then again I think that maybe its inherit into us. By god. Maybe I am wrong but how else you connect the monthly pain!? Causing pain and trauma is what is instilled in us.

Saturday, 24 August 2013

In other news

Ello There,
I am addressing to the blog, no need to get cocky, my dear invisible reader. Weekend is here and it is sucking the life out of me as usual. I am not a very social person so it gets a little difficult to be out and chill. Don't worry, I still do chill. Just a lil uncomfortably. So, its safe to say that I am fcked up introvert.

So, today as a weekend celebration, I got my ears pierced, they are my third and final ones. I love nothing goes wrong because my parents don't know anything about it and they will disown me if something were to go wrong. Even though this hurts as fuck, but I am very happy with it. I have wanted this for so long that it is almost sad.

In other news, I have a friend who I have kinda lost contact with, she is pretty awesome and we used to be quite tight back in the day. But people drift and thus we too drifted in another land, she into the land of awesome and me into the land of Engg., need I say more? So anyways, she is turning her life around and getting rich by making these cool cards and diaries, did I mention turning her life around? Yes. I am  happy for her. Maybe I should let her know that.

Anyways, I am still mentally undecided about what comes next in my life, I am sure it will kill me slowly and taking pleasure in every little slice of the butcher knife. It really is a predicament how I can single handedly ruin my own life.

Nothing more to see here.

-Ex.

Monday, 19 August 2013

I want *that* candy.

Today a friend gave me his blog id and i read the stuff he wrote. It was liberating in a few ways. First, I got another direction to look at when it comes to talking about my inability to write anymore. His writing is very laid back. It's very conversation styled. It's relaxing to read his words, unlike my cousin's who only make everything sound twisted and fancy. No, I get you are deep, I get symbolism and metaphors as well, but really man, give it a rest sometimes. So, anyway, I read one of his posts and it was about this random (to me) anonymous girl, who he apparently loves, but can never have. Heavy stuff. But he wasn't his whiney self. I actually was smiling while reading his rants. It was a fresh perspective on things.

Then I read one of his other posts, it was about being single and then missing being in a relationship. Well, I have never been in a relationship. I am yet to figure out the reason behind it, but whatever it is, I have never held a guy's hand and walked. I have never watched a movie with my head resting on someones shoulder, I have never had a guy look in to my eyes and tell me I am beautiful. Never. In fact I think I am a little scared of guys. Yeah, I guess it puts me in the loser category but whatever it is, its true. So, when I read about his feelings about this whole thing, I was slightly taken aback.

When I was in school, I mean, when we were in school, I used to have a crush on this guy and I like to believe that he did too, for a few days at least. So, when I read him write about all this all this time later I was forced to think where did I slip. I was never really into all this. I can't even flirt. I mean, I have never done it. I wish I could but I just can't. After a certain point it doesn't really matter.

I say it doesn't matter because when I read his posts, I realised you can only care about trivial things as love when you are satisfied with yourself, your life. And God knows that I am anything but satisfied. So, that's how I linked my now dead writing, I could not write because of my unsatisfaction has lead to being totally and completely uninspired.

I wish things were different, I wish I was more at ease. But turns out things are not as easy as shown on Friends. Life can be a pile of poop, and I am right in the middle of it, trying to get the fuck out of it. I am trying. GOD, I need this stupid Engineering to get over, and get a job so that I can get on with my life!

Forever in poop
- Ex.

Where the fuck is my Unicorn, pooping customize rain-fucking-bow?

Sunday, 18 August 2013

Ridikulous

I love acting. I mean not in a I-wanna-be-the-next-Vidya-Balan way but in a I-love-being-in-my-college-society way. When I started out in the college, I was oh so sad, because I didn't get into my desired field and stuff. But when I joined my drama club, there was a visible change in me. I was happier and my grades got better too. Now I am in my third year and I really need to think about my grades and better them, everybody I know needs to do that. But one of my friends left it, because she said she needs to concentrate on her studies, and now I am thinking, I have to study hard, and I can't let this ruin everything for me. But I can't simply get influenced by a person who can't seem to manage her time, right? Of course I am right. I will have to get an 8! 7.5 won't cut it anymore.  And it has to be done without sacrificing things that I love. Even though I am seriously considering deleting my Facebook, because it is just plain boring.

In college, money also happens to be a pain in the ass. I am always low on cash. Does it happen to everybody? I hope the answer is yes, because otherwise it would just mean that I suck at managing money. Actually problem arises when I am depressed (like now) that I eat a lot and things go a little out of hand. Like my weight, right now. 

Anyways, I have made a list in my mind, and the first priority on my list is to get 17+ (out of 20 that is) in my upcoming minors. Need to show certain bitches certain things. 

-
Ex.